patterns of behavior

[ateolf]

i was working on my project, getting these ideas, sussing them out in my mind, got to writing the paper and as i was discussing something, writing down my argument, i realized how groundless and pretty wrong it was...so there was just a mere few hours left and my whole project was fucked...i was barely able to stay awake at this point as well...i emailed my professor saying i'd have to do my presentation late 'cuz i noticed what i had based something on in the beginning was an error...then i went to sleep...i woke up four hours later to go door hang...that sucked, it was hot and i was tired...we didn't do too much...four streets, two groups of two covering two streets each...so for me, almost the equivalent of walking up and down a street once...then we went to El Porton...Willie was door hanging so that meant the general discussion pretty much revolved around "pussy talk"...and w/ Tony and Corey it's not like it was underencouraged...sometimes it's amusing to hear his vocabulary, w/ such terms as "blade" but i mostly just sat there barely keeping awake, eating chips and drinking my coke...then i went to my real analysis exam which i didn't have any chance at all to study for...it's astounding how badly i did...i mean, it was a fucking open-book exam, and out of the 6 questions i was only able to even ATTEMPT (wrongly, i know) to answer one of the questions...i mean, i didn't have the slightest clue...and it's not like i was short on time, i was still there w/ some of the others more than an hour after the class period was over...mostly just sitting there...it was terrible...oh well...i went to bed pretty early and woke up early today...maybe a half hour...i might've slept 'til the alarm, but Leala woke me up, all woofing at me...so i got up to go let her out, let the other two dogs out but she ran into my parent's room and lay down by the bed..."why the fuck did you wake me up if you just wanted to go here!? did you want me to go w/ you!? it's not like you needed me to get you here!" i didn't actually say that, just my thoughts...i drug her outside anyway...if she woke me up she's going outside anyway, damnit...after i walked a mile and a half i went over to the practice space to try out my new micro-synth w/ my other guitar pedals...i played on the drums some too...i came up w/ a ruling beat that i hope to have a band to rock it w/ soon...then i went to the main public library...i started to look up stuff for my project but didn't find anything...then i looked up synth stuff and spent a good while reading about that...mmm...synths...i stopped just in time to see i had just enough time to make it home in time for The Simpsons...now here i am...it's weird not having to go home and take a nap/finish sleeping after class...