what else can i say

[ateolf]

i just typed this immense, several page long entry and when i pushed th Updage Journal button, Netscape crashed and performed some illegal operation of sorts and it was all lost...but here's the gist, i put so much into it and talked about every fucking thing i was thinking at the time that i really can't go through it all again...i'm very much emptied by it...but something completely horrible happened: all 5 of the puppies drowned in the bathtub...i just spent an hour going on about how i feel, but all that's lost and i don't have the mental powers to do it again...but since i wrote it for myself and not anyone else, i guess it doesn't matter too much...but it still upsets me that those words are lost forever...(to myself moreso than anyone else...) maybe later on i'll go through what i was saying/am feeling...maybe i'll add it in bit by bit...i don't know...i feel stupid going on about the previous message when the real matter at hand is the dead puppies, but i really am drained from that...and, as i ened the last message, i need to spend some time and pay attention my living dogs right now...and maybe get back to vacuuming the water out of the bathroom carpet...

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oh, fuck's sake. that's awful...

[(Anonymous)]

if you don't mind my asking...how did it happen? that's terrible. if you don't want to talk about it, that's okay too. just curious.