lesbians

[ateolf]

my phone's still fucked up...it functions but the screen doesn't work...so if by any chance someone happened to call me and i wasn't there to answer i wouldn't be able to tell if i missed a call...so there you go...forgot to mention previously that on monday Mary Beth gave me After the Quake by Haruki Murakami...let's see...been workin' some overtime...except last night...went to see Jenny Hoyston (aka Paradise Island) (of lead singer of Erase Errata Fame)...she was good...Matt was there and we hung out with him a bit...Jenny's performance was sandwhiched between some crap though...the opening band was The Warbles...they're local...annoying...also, a friend of hers played a short three song set that was just her and guitar and it was bad, but short...afterwards was a band called American Princes...(their name's appropriate, another band that sounds like america and/or the heartland...) we gave 'em a brief chance and split as soon as we could...i got a bunch of Jenny Hoyston's merch: a Fingered dvdzine (has to do with San Francisco and Erase Errata's on it...i apparently snatched up the last copy too!), Paradise Island: Seeing Spots, Jenny Hoyston: Isle Of, Paradise Island/Dada Swing: Beast/Schadenfroh, and a couple of buttons on "Paradise Island" the other "lesbians"...i'm home now but i'm going back to work for three hours overtime shortly...i guess that be it!

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favorite excerpts from her zine:

7. Did "Sexy Back" take over your mind last fall? And did "Irreplaceable" do the same thing around New Year's? What's up with these LA hit factory products and their ability to plant roots so deeply in our brains? I'm thinking this is some CIA bullshit.

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12. Remember how I searched every record store in the western world for Annette PEacock's Sky Skating and could never find it? I do! Remember how Paul Smith found it on vinyl from some guy in Germany, mailed it to me and made my year? I do! It's so much better and weirder than I ever remembered. Yes, she does have a song about having sex with a tree. Yes, she was a drum machine and synth pioneer. Yes, I am still obsessed!

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I was about to get my period. My body felt like it wanted to be impregnated by a thousand sailors. That made it all so much worse. In the hotel bar I smoked Nat Sherman's and read the paper. The Kills had played that night and I'd missed them. I could have gone to that show and picked up some cute boy and brought him back to my hotel room. Now that we were broken up those were the sorts of things I could do. A guy in the bar talked to me but the thought of having sex with him was gross. I went upstairs to my room. There was nothing in this neighborhood but the vegan cafe that closed at dusk. I contemplated calling a hooker. Just knowing I could actually call a hooker, that I had the money and that I didn't have you, was enough to trip out on. I called a free phone sex line instead and had phone sex with creepy southern men. When it was over I felt too bizarre to cry and just fell asleep.

The next night I was still at the hotel and thought about calling the phone sex line again but worried it would make me feel creepy so I didn't. I watched a rerun of Ronald Reagan's funeral and cried that people die. I wondered which sensation was worse, phone sex creepy or crying at a Ronald Reagan's funeral creepy. I was so angry at you. This was enitrley your fault, and I still didn't understand why you didn't want me anymore.

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J: Yeah, I want to sleep with a real human. There are these basic things I want that go along with a relationship...

T: Ooh. What are they?

J: Well, when you're in a relationship you get someone to have sex with, someone to sleep with and someone to do domestic stuff with. I love cooking for another person and I love eating with another person, and not just anyone. I want to spend that kind of time with someone who is smart and funny and sweet, like a good friend. I may not have time for intense dating, but I do wish I had a person to sleep with at night and have a great conversation with over breakfast. Hearing myself talk, I'm thinking I sound insensitive or too practical (too Virgo?), but those are things that I crave and you get them when you are in a relationship.

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J: Making it happen organically over time the way a "real" friendship should. You're so right. It's hard though. It's so exciting when you have a new lover. It takes a lot of effort not to get wrapped up in passion.

T: Yeah. I have come from a background where dama equals love, so I always felt like if there wasn't this drama then it must not really be love, because I don't feel crazy. I think I want to explore the love that develops with a person when you're not just conjuring up this feeling that I always called passion, this worked up thing...

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J: Because you need to be stimulated.

T: Yeah, like I have this old friend who is really smart and really nice and is a really good person, things that I value, but I'm just not turned on, there's not like that...That thing. Something has to be sparkly for me to be able to sustain interest in somebody. That's the thing that gets you through the hard times if you have that foundation of deep attraction for someone else. Wanting them. Then you can get through the shit of "I hate you right now," because inevitably you're not going to think the other person is great ALL of the time. That's the little ingredient you have to have.