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the past few days have been really fucked up, in terms of extreme polarity of fucking great and fucking horrible...seriously, there have been two great things and two terrible things, one of each i feel inclined to mention here...starting off, thursday Leala died...and it sucked 'cuz i found out via text message on my last break at work (i was pretty mad at my sister for that, but somewhat unfairly...i even knew while i was mad that a good part of it was just redirecting my emotions about Leala, etc...) so i had to go back and be on the phone for two hours just trying not to cry...and it's pretty sad how she died too...i dunno, a combination of accident and old age...she fell in the pool and drowned...she used to be trained to swim to the steps, but more and more she's been getting blinder and weaker and her legs would shake even when she'd walk...so i guess she was too weak to swim and even if she could she probably couldn't even see where she was going anyway...i don't know what else to say...i loved that dog so much...she would have been 14 this december...i'm just grateful i got to spend a lot of time with her this past sunday...i wouldn't know how i'd be able to live with myself if it had happened after i hadn't seen her for a few weeks (something i've actually worried about a lot lately...so, i haven't been unprepared for this...but i miss her so fucking much there's no way i can even begin to put it into words...) i love you, Leala, goodbye.........as far as other stuff, yesterday at work was just fucking terrible...something happened that i won't go into...it doesn't have anything to do with the actual job or anything else...separate and incidental, but it sucked...it was good that i was leaving early anyway...leaving early for Tom Waits...so that, of course, is one of the good things...i went with Mary Beth and it was a good show...he opened with "Singapore"(!)...he played most of Real Gone, which i used to rank along with Mule Variations as somewhat mediocre when i first got it, but listening to it last week when i went through all my Tom Waits in preparation for the show i changed my opinion on it and like it a lot now...now i place it much closer to Bone Machine (not the VERY top of my favorite albums of his, but close...) the show anyway: of course, with a massive catalog such as his i could have picked a better setlist, but it was still really good...i had REALLY wanted to hear "Tom Traubert's Blues" and in the middle they rolled out the grand piano and he did some piano songs...he didn't do that one but he did "Invitation to the Blues"...uh, a song off the same album that has "blues" in the title...and, which a good song, comes nowhere close to the sheer perfection of "Tom Traubert's Blues" which isn't necessarily my favorite Tom Waits song but is THE absolute PERFECT piano balad...and right before "Invitation to the Blues" he said something like "this is one of your favorites" or something like that which confounds me 'cuz, uh, what about "Tom Traubert's Blues"!? it was still good of course i can't expect just all the songs i want to hear, but that was so close...anyway, it was a good show...i guess that's all for now...