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[ateolf]

well...i did a post explaining the whole situation...every detail about what's bothering me about it...but at the advice of a friend, i've made it private for now, maybe forever...it was mostly just a rational breakdown of the whole situation but of course as i'm very bitter there are some very bitter things...but as it's an explanation of just why i never want to talk to either of them again i don't think there's any way around that...i might post it again later...but don't think of it as a sermon...maybe there is some element of that, but i do address my fault in the whole situation as well...and i guess another is my weakness, because i can't finish this w/out saying they knew this would happen...no matter how much i'm lied to about never having meant for anything to happen...

update: the post is back up if you haven't already noticed..."I think in the short term it's best to post it or you'll explode." we'll see what happens w/ the long term when it gets here...