Careering

Jesus christ what a crazy fucking week. It feels long as fucking hell even though it was a short week. If it had been a full week I think my fucking head would have exploded. Anyway, working and all that. Last week ended the 20 day period when enrollment figures would determine how many teachers a school can still have. So our numbers were under. Ended up being five teachers to get "excessed" (what they call "surplussing" now). So, after all that happened at the end of year and my current situation this year, I'd been pretty sure I'd be a shoe-in (had the feeling for weeks, even come to accept it and had been making some preliminary new-job plans). So I'm waiting all week and don't hear anything. Also, this is the week first progress report grades are due, ended up running on very little sleep. Took very long naps upon coming home the past few days. Felt super-claustrophobic and on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Anyway, this morning the kids were in the auditorium and Dr. Hunter called the teachers into the cafeteria. We got the speech about the numbers being in and that today five teachers would be let go and any volunteers? and a bit of talk about the usual state of dread in education sort of stuff and that it was going to be done by the end of the day. So I go through the day. At least it went by pretty quickly with short classes (between auditorium in the morning and pep rally in the afternoon, classes were just long enough for bell work and a quiz). Coming back from lunch I got a call from the office that Dr. Hunter wanted to see me when I got a chance. Okay, so I knew this was it. Went through fifth period (which is longer than the other classes 'cuz it goes alongside lunch). Even though I was ready for it, I was still feeling pretty emotional. Coming back to class, a kid commented on my red eyes. Okay, my planning period was after that. So I went to the office. Had to wait a few minutes. When I went in, he showed me a piece of paper and said I was fourth from the bottom in terms of my tem ranking. Then he said he was going to work it out, but that I had to perform on the EOC test. So, I still have my job. I've gone through an insane rollercoaster the past few hours (not to mention weeks). And after that meeting, it did just about feel my head was going to explode. Anything else? I can't think of anything. My brain's kinda fried.