ateolf | fool plays the fool...

AAARGH!!! Megan and i went and ate at Pho Saigon...then back to her apartment, but that didn't last long as she remembered about a test she has tomorrow that she had almost forgotten about and had to study or whatever...though, of course, i have that paranoid notion that she was just trying to get rid of me...i don't know how much i trust it...but whatever the case, i am extremely fearful that i'm boring her to death...i wish she was into the same kind of music i am...this isn't a criticism towards her, but a criticism towards me...I CAN'T FUCKING TALK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE!!! i'm so fucking pathetic...i mean, it's possible for me to, but with someone i don't know well, nothing else comes so easily...as i just said, i'm so fucking pathetic...she did say we should hang out tomorrow night when she's done with school and all...i'm just so fucking worried about it...i can't fucking think of anything to do...and i'm sure at this rate she'll have absolutely no interest in me whatsoever by the end of the week...and that's being generous...god i'm such a fucking mess...after that i went over and hung out with Justin for some hours...

in non-freaking-out-over-my-social-ineptitude-related news, today i got two things in the mail: my Psychocandy shirt and my Skinny Puppy: Vivisect VI cd...woohoo...and tonight i won another cd on ebay: Bauhaus: Burning from the Inside for $1 + shipping...that's a sweet deal...but i guess it just still all comes down to freaking out over Megan...i guess i'll see what comes of tomorrow night...maybe i can manage to not come off as a complete tool...big if, however...