re-routing

[ateolf]

here's a comment i made in someone else's journal...but i thought i'd link it from mine since it was entirely over-confessional...and would do better as a 'journal' entry type thingie than most of the crap i post here...

i wonder if it's a bad thing that i relate so well w/ this ep...nah...(anything that can make Joy Division seem non-depressing HAS to be great...) if i ever met Lou Barlow i'd haveta give him a big ol' smoocher...

Comments

[velouria33.livejournal.com]

My god man! You can't get over loneliness if you deny the fact that you need someone else. It's not so bad to let someone else become part of you. Knowing someone on such a deep level that they become part of you is a beautiful thing...

... somebody needs to knock the logic out of you. ;) Read "since feeling is first" by e.e. cummings.

[techstep.livejournal.com]

The problem, though, is that if you have a good idea you're probably not going to have anyone in your life (by your own choosing or the fickle finger of fate completely shafting you), it's not very efficient to be lonely. The optimal solution in that case is to ignore it, hope it goes away, and immerse yourself in other things to compensate.

[velouria33.livejournal.com]

but you don't know that you're destined to be alone. The whole fact that you feel lonely and would rather not be gives you a good chance. Your entire life, whether you want to admit it or not, you will be looking for love and sooner or later it will find you. The only way that you could prevent this from happening is trying to ignore the fact that you're lonely and you need someone else, you know? Just don't give up on it :)

sooner or later it will find you?

[ateolf.livejournal.com]

that's a pretty big assumption, i'd say...

Re: sooner or later it will find you?

[velouria33.livejournal.com]

well, believe what you want. I was only trying to help. I'm going to have to stop being so optimistic for people I don't even know.

Re: sooner or later it will find you?

[ateolf.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry if i sound like an arse...it is appreciated...and you prob'ly won't believe me, but i am an optimist...but i'm also very literal...and saying something WILL happen is something i always steer clear of...but i don't mean to sound like i don't think it will or can...i guess i just think more in terms of probability and likeliness...:) and i don't mean to sound like i've been attacking you at all...i'll just take your "will" and add a "most likely" to the end...;) (although i haven't checked back and reread the passage in question so forgive me if my context is slightly off...) but i'm starting to lose coherence so i'll stop now...and i don't mean to sound more negative and evil than i am...which i'm sure i'm doing but eh...or something...

Re: sooner or later it will find you?

[velouria33.livejournal.com]

no no no you don't sound like an ass. i know asses and you're not an ass.

I'll just try to stay away from all of those absolute... black and white words. I can see how those can irritate and disagree :).

but still.... I bet you'll fall in love, get married and have a gazillion children some day. ;) (I said "I bet"... so you can't say a damn thing hehe)

Re: sooner or later it will find you?

[ateolf.livejournal.com]

as long as Mark E. Smith's willing...

logic of loneliness

[ateolf.livejournal.com]

that's not what i was saying...i said it'd be nice to be in a relationship...if such a thing ever happened in my life, it would be a-okay...but it's not...and i've learned to be comfortable w/ that fact...i'm not avoiding the prospect...but i'm not driving myself insane over its absence either...being obsessed w/ the idea and having it cause me so much distress would be pretty pointless since it won't help anything...i'll just not dwell on any absence i can't do anything about...directly...just leave the worrying for when something actually happens...

and while i don't hate him or anything...i'm not a huge E. E. Cummings fan either...:) (capitalization on purpose...my 'fuck you' to his arbitrary crap...oi...heh...)

Re: logic of loneliness

[velouria33.livejournal.com]

I totally misinterpreted then, sorry. I just know so many people who get impatient and totally block themselves off from the opposite sex... and it just doesn't help, you know?

and you're right about e.e. cummings, he is overly dependent on whim.. chance.. whatever. But I love his works and it's helped me to adopt bits and pieces of his capriciousness, but not all of it, hell no.