compaction

[ateolf]

the weight of my project is starting to hit me...i was feeling almost sick w/ nervousness walking back from class and driving home...(i think the "Peter Murphy" bonus track on Mask durring the drive home helped subside that some...) now i'm just feeling emotionally unseasy...i've been on the verge of tears...but i guess all this might be good...i think i may even be able to take it as motivation, something i can't even remember last having...so if i actually focus i guess i can pull something off for my project...god...i have a day and a half now...let's see if i can't actually get something done now...i think i might go to the grocery store and get a fairly large amount of coke...but i do think i'm feeling more focused than usual...i'd better hold onto that...

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[ateolf.livejournal.com]

it has to do w/ music as an oral language and models of computation crap...however, so far i've only been inspired to dig up very old tapes of "my band" and spend hours unnecessarily listening to them...however, my dilemma is starting to return to my brain and i think maybe i can bring my attention back to it...(not that it was ever really there in the first place...) ugh...although i rarely ever get that divine inspiration...it usually turns out to just be a really shoddy last-minute job...maybe the god of procrastination will be kind to me tonight/tomorrow...