ateolf | (Reply)

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i think you're doing that thing where you decide ahead of time, front loaded, you can't be negative in any significant way about, which might include suspecting intentions of, the guy because you have empathy for him. for me it's almost the opposite--i can suspect it was intentional _because_ anger makes sense, is understandable. and like many times before, you seem to think there's a given valuation that goes along inevitably with such a notion and since you don't want any part of that aspect it means you can't "allow" mentally and whatever else for the possibility--but there isn't. there's truth which is independent of what people do with it or how they misuse it. anyway. this is a familair divergence between us i've witnessed before, and feeling set apart in this way the older i get and the more i witness and feel i understand deeper than before when younger, the more i wonder at. because i don't think i am bad or wrong for my own thought process, at all. otherwiser actually. in multiple ways.

anyhow. a bit like the alienation i used to feel at K&P, the same multiple vectors of it, and being misunderstood, and frustrated, but now, older, more shruggo about it too. alone and/but "forget it jake, it's squaretown"